Life's like that

200211

2011-02-20T01:54:00.002+08:00

Can you tell me what to do when I miss you?

Seriously I don't know why I think so much. Maybe ki siao already.

Sigh.

I think ki siao also because of you.

160111

2011-01-16T19:04:00.002+08:00

I hope my trouble will go away with the smoke when I'm smoking. And eventually gone when I distinguish the cigarette.

Problem is, how many pack of cigarette do I need?

180910

2010-09-18T09:47:00.002+08:00

That's it.

She's fated not to be yours, why are you still so stubborn? You can only blame yourself for not taking any action. Just because you fear of losing her, then you don't dare to do anything. Now, it's half the same as losing her. If only you did something, maybe you won't feel just as sad.

But I'm happy for her, as long as she's happy

2010-09-12T20:37:00.002+08:00

Don't see me always joke around. It's just that i have one big fear.
The fear of losing you. So I keep avoiding this issue.

Just give me more time and I'll be back. Back to the person who will always be your best friend and supporting you.

2010-09-12T01:00:00.001+08:00

Can we stop being friends?

Because I want to stop worrying about you.
Because I want to stop being jealous.
Because I want to stop being heartbroken.
Because I want to stop thinking about you.

But I just can't do it.

190410

2010-04-19T12:41:00.002+08:00

Went to watch Kick-Ass the other day and it remind me of something. I always thought of having some super power. Spiderman's flexibility, Flash's speed. With all this, I can get my IPPT gold, haha. But it will never happened la.

I always hope some insects will come and bite me then I can have some power, lol. But everytime mosquitoes bite me and nothing happened leh. Nabei, bite so many make my leg so ugly.

No super power then I have to count myself la. Wednesday IPPT, must get silver. Never get silver, no reward.

Anyway yesterday was my father's 44th birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!

030310

2010-03-03T14:55:00.003+08:00

My new love!

豆花妹！

She's so pretty. Look at this video of her.

Oh my god! Can someone bring me to taiwan and look for her?

010110

2010-01-01T15:20:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!

I had a good start, how about you? Hahahaha. Went to club Atlantis again yesterday, this time it was more happening. Not the performance or what-so-ever, but the atmosphere created by the people there.

Alot of things happened, too happening that i dont want to write here, hahahaha.

I can only say:

Power, Solid, Steady, Sui la!!!

Have a good year ahead everyone!

261209

2009-12-26T16:19:00.002+08:00

Finally complete my 44th Air Defence Weapon Operator Course ( I-HAWK). Trainee no more, hahaha. And I finally pass my IPPT. Run like a dog then pass, but I need to be 36 seconds faster to get silver.

Went to countdown at Club Atlantis, the whole place was so cool. Not like those typical night club, the thai girls there were so speechless, hahaha.

I'm on leave untill monday. Going to Bukit Batok Civil Service Club, then night time going back to camp. And this marks my starting point in the Air Force.

141109

2009-11-14T15:42:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went to Geylang and kio gui with my flight mates, and it was friday the 13th.

Haha, we went to have dim sum at 126 la, not kio gui. The food there is still the same, very nice. After that, we went to Pool Fushion to play pool before the start of our midnight show.

Caught 2012, quite a nice show. A bit exaggerating but I like the storyline.

Alright, gonna spend my saturday wisely. Because tomorrow early 8am I will be back in camp for confinement. 64 out of 100 also confinement. But too bad, in Air Force, below 75 is considered fail.

Have to go for my lunch already.

181009

2009-10-18T12:09:00.002+08:00

Woah woah woah~

I'm back.

Ok, I'm just lazy to blog. Anyway, I came out safely from Pulau Tekong and I'm now in the Air Force.

This few months, nothing interesting happened. Everything is about army.

And I'm gonna book in later at night.

Come back when I got the time :)

040609

2009-06-04T19:16:00.001+08:00

After today, I won't be coming online often anymore. Tomorrow I'm going for my National Service. Don't miss me ok? Hahaha.

Anyway, I just want to stop thinking about everything. No point too.

Bye everyone.

240409

2009-04-24T10:47:00.001+08:00

I promise I'll fuck those people who disturb my friends, especially my two best friend. Trying to create trouble and hack into their facebook, knncb. Don't let me find out who did this, I'll never let you off.

180409

2009-04-18T13:42:00.002+08:00

Happy 43rd Birthday to my Daddy!

Going to my Grandparents' house to celebrate later. :)

Went to catch 17 Again with my seconday schoolmates. The movie was nice, how I wish there will also be a soul spiriter to let me go back time and do the things that I had done wrong, to give me a second chance in life. Sigh.

Read something yesterday and this thing made me feel very very bad. I didn't sleep for the whole night, only sleep in the morning. Maybe it's because of the way I say it, make them misunderstood what I'm trying to tell them. But it's ok, I don't blame them. And I really wants to say sorry.

150409

2009-04-15T00:23:00.002+08:00

Ok Desmond Kristy, you can do it. Don't mind don't mind. Take a deep breathe, breathe in, breathe out.

Just keep everything to yourself.

Ok, you can do it.

080409

2009-04-08T20:40:00.002+08:00

WOAH!!!! I GRADUATED!!!

Early morning wake up and prepare myself, then my grandmother came to my house. Then I drove them to my school.

It's not really said as fun, but this is a memorable memory for me. Took lots of pictures too! But I lazy to post it here la, go to my facebook and see, haha.

Today is a happy day! But it can be more perfect. =)

010409

2009-04-01T16:11:00.003+08:00

Sian, been sick since last night. Flu and sore throat.

Today is April's fool day but I'm in no mood to prank on people like what I did for every year.

Anyway, I think I had a dream. A dream of being alone. I need someone, anyone, to be there for me. So I don't have to be alone.
Sorry for saying those rubbish to you, but I think I did the right things, to stop us from being close.

Hai.

310309

2009-03-31T01:47:00.002+08:00

I'm so confuse with myself. Been thinking of alot of things, but I got no answer to my own curiousity.

What kind of person am I? What do I really want? Hai.

If anyone knows the answer, please tell me.

220309

2009-03-22T02:14:00.002+08:00

Ok, so my application as police officer had failed. So I have been wondering what would my future be.

Anyway, I guess I have a few options.

1) Go into army and done with it after two years, then fly to Australlia to continue studying, studying on something that I want to do after I graduate. Diploma in Horse Business Management.

2) Keep applying for police and see if I can get it.

3) Finish with army and find a job.

This are some options la, but most probably I will do the first one. Who knows next time anyone of you(if there are people reading my blog) goes to Singapore Turf Club to bet on horse or become a horse owner, you might see my BIG name there, hahaha.

100309

2009-03-10T12:05:00.001+08:00

Haha, I'm so damn happy. Yesterday still nervous like hell, can't sleep at night. Not anymore from now on, my nightmare is over.

Haha, so happy la. Let's welcome a new driver on the road. Woohoo!!!

080309

2009-03-08T12:04:00.002+08:00

Went to a night club yesterday with my father and his friend. Damn cool la, it's different from those live band pub or club. There will be china hostess to sit with you or if you are in the KTV room, they will sing with you. Then after that if you want to appreciate them for their work, you can hang flower around them. Mininum is $50, and I saw how a guy spend more than $50,000 on one girl, in just one night.

Then there's this girl who accompany me the whole night, hahaha. Quite pretty and we chatted the whole night la. She's older than me by 3 years old only, although she sometimes have to sit at other table when there are customer calling for her, or it's her turn to sing on the stage, but she will keep coming back and chat with me. Really a nice person, hahaha, and we exchange phone number. She just reached Singapore for only 2 weeks and had never tour around here before, maybe I can bring her out and walk around huh? Lol.

Wa seh, two more days only man. Good luck la Desmond Kristy.

070309

2009-03-07T02:18:00.002+08:00

My best night in my life, hahaha. Win money at Singapore Turf Club, first time win so much. Gonna save up this money and maybe go enjoy, hahaha.

Anyway I'm left with 4 days, rest my weekends and chiong after that. Hope that I can get what I want.

I have yet to recieve the police letter for second interview and for medical checkup, emailed them and they haven't reply yet. I guess they just don't want a pai ka.

Alright, hope there will be good news in the next post.

260209

2009-02-26T23:53:00.002+08:00

Slept at 4 plus last night and woke up at 10 am, damn tired. But waking up early will definetely be expecting something that will benefit me, else I will sleep like a dead log. Went to Vienna buffet at United Square, I always like their food there and I think it's better than Paris.

After that went to IMM's Giant to shop for grocery and back home for mahjong. Wa, I damn tired man, going to sleep early tonight.

I'm left with one week, go go go!

160209

2009-02-16T17:24:00.009+08:00

So sian, everyday stay at home, except for lesson. Been missing about playing basketball everyday, but whenever I start to think or dream about it. It ends with the same ending which make me don't dare to play anymore. Even my dream knows what I am afraid of, sigh.

I miss the feeling of flying high up in the air, but whenever I dream of this, I will end up landing with a sprain ankle. Any sports that I think of playing, it will end with a sprain ankle, and they show me slow motion somemore.

Anyway, The West won The East 146 to 119 in the 2009 NBA all star game. Kobe Bryant gets the MVP and Shaquile O'neal as the co MVP.

Shaq with a dunk.

Nate Robinson with a height of 1.72m beat Dwilight Howard, 2.11m in the Slam Dunk Contest.

Dwilight Howard change into Superman in the telelphone booth.

Nate Robinson flew over Dwiligh Howard.

My idol.

But he is still the best!

090209

2009-02-09T12:48:00.003+08:00

Just came back from my driving lesson, so tired. I nearly forgot about the lesson today. I slept at three plus am and wake up at 9am. Although it was just a six hours of sleep, I had a very weird dream.

I dream that there is a guy who wanted to kill me, I was walking with my friends in groups of two. Two further up front and two further behind. Then there was this man who walk pass and intercept and walk in the middle of the group. Suddenly he turn and run towards me and stab me with a knife.

Then, I woke up in my dream. Then the dream became real, the whole scenario happened. Then the man walk pass and intercept and walk in the middle of the group, and I realise the dream was a premonition. So I stop walking, the man turn and saw me staring at him, and he change the target to my friend. So he stab the back of one of my friend who was walking further infront.

Crazy dream, but I had a weird feeling when I woke up.

Anyway, it's the last day of Chinese New Year, time to eat tang yuan.

0502091

2009-02-05T17:06:00.002+08:00

YES! I'm back home from chalet. Spend three days at a ulu chalet, curtain open and you can see the famous Old Changi Hospital. Yea, we are just staying next to it. Barbeque pit is also facing at the hospital.

First night, because the girls are afraid, so everybody sleep together in a room. Move all the mattress over and squeeze in one room. Some didn't sleep, including me. Suddenly at 2 am plus, the light suddenly black out, lol. Scare the hell out of some people. I know it's not something like there are ghost, so me and alvin went to make the lights back.

Second days, I prepared myself at 7 45 am and took a cab to New Phoenix Park. I was there for the Police Officer interview from 8 30 am to 6 pm, damn tired. Don't want to talk about the interview, because I declare that both my ankle ligament teared, sigh. Now just wait and see if they send me any letter.

Then took a cab back to chalet and start barbeque. The food was nice mannnn, eat untill damn full, haha. At night, I can't take it anymore so I went to sleep.

Third day, pack up and balak kampong, haha. I think I miss my bed, went home and sleep again untill now just wake up, lol.

Hopefully I can get what I want.

220109

2009-01-22T23:24:00.002+08:00

Today is my last day of school! YAY!!! Fuck tomorrow's lesson, I graduate from that module long ago. Finally graduating, YES!

But got to plan what I am going to do next, not easy mannn.

Damn sian. The same whole thing and I repeat my mistakes again and again, don't know why sia. Guess I need more practise, tomorrow try again.

I'm going to rest now, the veins in my neck pop out again, nabei.

160109

2009-01-16T23:16:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was my best friend's 21st birthday. We went to Shokudu to have our lunch, the food there was great, I will want to go there again. Then after that went home and played mahjong.

Today, went for my driving lesson. After that went to Jurong Point 2 to find my mother and sister. My first time there, nearly got lost. I never get lost because I went to buy coffee bean Caramel Frappucino then while waiting, I look around and I saw them, haha.

They went to buy their Chinese New Year clothes, walao, look at all the girl stuff, my eye feel like dropping out. Didn't really buy much stuff, except that I bought a new watch for myself. Finally I got a new watch, and it doesn't really cost much. $68. It's a black metallic strap watch with no face, totally transparent. So all you see is the gears and the mechanic in the watch, damn cool la.

Last one more week of school, and I will be GRADUATING!!! I've cleared my CE points, 30 plus points in one semester, cleared my PP, cleared my FYP. Woohoo!

One more week for me to settle some stuff also. If I hear any of those fucking comments about my friends, you will get it from me. Nobody can bully my friend except for me, lol. Try and talk rubbish about my friends again, I show you how I turn your chee bye mouth into sausage mouth. I'll give you a free lips maximiser, I'll make your lips plumped up and ultra sexy.

Don't believe me? Try it. Really feel like trying? Think again.

140109

2009-01-14T10:17:00.002+08:00

Slept at 4, wake up at 9. I don't know whether it's a good thing or a bad one, because I don't feel tired at all, I feel energetic.

One weeks of school left, and I will be graduating. Time flies. During these 3 years, I made alot of friends and o course, made some best friends. There are also things that I don't like about these 3 years, but the one that made me so sad is I didn't complete my dream. Just like the one in my secondary school days, it seems that I don't have any fate with them.

Anyway, it's over. Don't feel like talking about it anymore.

Wa, I made a stupid mistake just now. Sian.

070109

2009-01-07T21:03:00.002+08:00

YEAH!!! Finally FYP is over. Now just wait for time's up and get my diploma. SONG AR! But I'm still left for 3 CE points, gonna get it clear by this week.

Suddenly feel that I'hv clear alot of things. NS medical check up, FYP, now left with driving license. Finally a time for me to relax.

But there's one thing that I think will always be incomplete in my life, the only thing that I didn't clear. Sigh. Nevermind, I'hv tried my best.

Sibei hungry mann.

040109

2009-01-04T21:44:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO WAYNE HO KUN ZHE!

Early morning wake up and wrap the gift that I bought, then went out to meet Pauline. We went to Westmall's Breadtalk to buy a small cake for Wayne, and we intend to go to his house and surprise him.

But in the end, he surprise us back. He was at Woodlands when we were at Bukit Batok. So I suggested to meet him at Marsiling MRT, but he told me that he's going out to eat at town. So me and Pauline went to orchard and look for him. Pass him the gift and talk for awhile then went to my grandma house.

Hahaha, hope you like the presents!

311208

2008-12-31T09:04:00.002+08:00

Just woke up, or did I ever sleep last night? My whole body was tired, but my mind isn't. Lie on my bed and the time that I last saw was 545am. Woke up at 8am, bath, suppose to go for my FYP meeting. But my leg very pain, think I'm going to the doctor again.

Last day of 2008, but I guess I'm not going anywhere. Damn broke now. Stay at home eat cup noodles.

So sian, shall see what are the plans later.

261208

2008-12-26T18:41:00.003+08:00

Removed my bandage today, yea!!! Then bath, went back to the doctor and bandage my ankle again, =.= But my leg feel much better already, can walk normally for a few steps already.

Holiday damn bored la, everyday stay at home, nothing to do. School reopening soon and I haven't go anywhere yet.

The gift I wanted to buy, seems like Singapore don't have. Think I have to change into something else.

SIAN LA!

On the first day of christmas my true love send to me, ONE BIKINI!!!

241208

2008-12-24T22:23:00.007+08:00

Didn't sleep for the whole night, despite the nice weather. But I can't sleep due to the pain, sian. Early morning went to geylang to see doctor, lie down there, PONG! Fucking pain, i lie down there cannot move.

Before

After

Bandage already still look like pig trotter. After that my grandmother drive me to Bukit Batok driving center for my Final Theory Test, and because of my leg, cancelled the driving lesson today.

I PASSED MY FINAL THEORY, haha! But the Practical Test damn long la, have to wait till march, sian.

Today is Christmas eve, stay at home because I still cannot walk. My parents asked me to order pizza and celebrate at home, lol.

One and a half hours more to open up my christmas present, so curious and so excited, haha.

231208

2008-12-23T22:56:00.002+08:00

First I was left out, then I got out cast, then I became lonely, sitting at the bench alone. After that I was so happy that I finally got to train. But I don't know what happened, I jump, then I sprain my right ankle. Now it had swollen, damn big. Just like I got my ankle ligament the last time, sigh.

I don't know what to do now, there's final theory tomorrow and driving lesson after that.

Anyway, I got my two christmas present from Wayne and Pauline, I will open on the 25th. Thanks.

Sigh~

191208

2008-12-19T00:01:00.002+08:00

Just came back home from grandparents house. My sister drive us back sia, hahaha.

Yesterday, I dreamt of a very sweet dream, but it's totally opposite of the real situation. I know it's not going to happen, but at least I have the right to dream of it right, hahahaha.

Damn sian, going to rest soon. Good night.

171208

2008-12-17T13:46:00.002+08:00

These two days did not have a good rest. Monday and Tuesday had to wake up at 7am, then went to school for CE activities. Hopefully with the two CE I went and the BRAG CE points, I have clear my 40 CE points.

Yesterday was the first day I wear contact lens to play basketball, hahaha. Everything is like "zoom in" when I play. Still need to adjust, because last time i play with feelings. Lol, I am an emotional person.

Finally bought Harry Potter and the Death Hallows, whahaha. Long time did not read book already, I only read boobs, LOL.

Ok, I am going to cook maggie mee now. HUNGRY!

131208

2008-12-13T13:46:00.002+08:00

So long didn't blog already, this few weeks so super sian. I got FYP still not done yet and 13 more CE points, I don't want to pay $1,050 to come back next year.

Recently been thinking about some problem, why do people still want to hunt about other people past? Why can't they stop everything since it has been so long? Why they have already move on, but they still want to hurt that person, not letting them to move on?

One more, WHY THEY SO STUPID!?

If the one that is being hurt is me, I don't know how I will solve this problem also, maybe I will be the same like you.

Now having holidays already, I will be at home everyday just like all other holidays. Christmas, I will sing christmas carol to myself. New year countdown, I will look at my laptop time and countdown to myself.

Damn sian la. Faster graduate from school then I go and find some job. Then not sian loh!

201108

2008-11-20T22:31:00.002+08:00

Knn, today I super angry. Just because I talked in class, my facilitator ask me to leave the class. What the fuck!? Then I argue with him, he not happy say want to call security guard to chase me out, nabei chee bye. So I left the class together with my whole team, heard that there are alot of security guard patrolling around my level. t('.'t)

Went to play dota and slack in the library. After that went for my NAPFA test, failed my pull ups and 2.4km run. Confirm one la, no need to think also know I will fail, but just to try how well I fared.

After that still have BRAG, lost to SEG. No comments.

Anyway, today really damn fucked up.

261008

2008-10-26T13:36:00.006+08:00

Last friday, went to Singapore Turf Club with my father, because his horse is racing that day. Walao, first time go in. The whole place is very grand, very comfortable. There are chef that will cook different kind of cuisine for you, but very expensive.

This is the place I sit, infront of me is a television that I can watch if the horse is too far away. On the table are the betting paper, similiar as those you buy 4D at Singapore pool. The on the far side, is the actual track that the horse will be racing on.

Then when my father ask me out for smoking break, there is another area that you can see the horse, which is call the parade ring. Before the race, horse owner will be able to go down and look at their horse, talk to the trainer and the jockey. The horse will be walking around for people to judge and bet on them.

And this is my father horse.

Ok, this is how I spend my friday night, damn long didn't go out for a walk. Yesterday got a friendly against National Youth Under 16, then went back home and sleep. Later going bbq, my cousin birthday.

My PP presentation is on this wednesday, I haven't finish my poster yet. Die man, hope I can pass.

181008

2008-10-18T14:20:00.002+08:00

Supposed to go to school today, but they say no need when I have already prepared myself. I make up untill so nice, style my hair untill so stylo, comb my armpit hair untill so straight. Don't waste all the work I did to myself right, so I went out to buy breakfast for myself. But if I buy for myself, my parents and sisters sure say I selfish right? So I buy carrot cake for them lor. On the way, just remembered Manchester United is playing today, so went to Singapore pool to buy a small bet. Hope I can win, huat ar! Hahaha.

Yesterday did a research about my leg. After both my ankle ligament teared, my legs like become useless like that, run abit pain, walk also pain, sit also pain. Some times ago, I went to consult a trainer and they told me because my ankle ligament teared, so when I try to stretch my leg, it is not easy to loosen the muscle in my leg, that's why my leg will become so pain. The part that made my leg pain is the shin.

I made a research about shin, I wanted to see if there is anyway to stretch my shin, it is the most difficult part to stretch and loosen the muscle. So I found out what I got is actually a shin splint. This is what I found out:

"Shin splints is a general term used to refer to a painful condition in the shins. It is often caused by running or jumping, and may be very slow to heal."

"The muscle pain is caused by any activity that involves running, jumping, also sometimes even walking, swimming, roller skating, or other basic physical activity. An individual not accustomed to running may experience pain in the shin muscles the next day even after a single, short bout of intensive running. Sometimes shin splints is also a result of stress fractures in the shin."

Even my shin will get stress, hahaha. Like what is written above, I feel pain even the next day or the next next day, or the next next next day. Everytime after training you can see me walk as if I have big balls. (I really have! LOL!)

Recently didn't have enough sleep la. I have to complete my remaining 10 CE points, my PP poster not yet done and the presentation is in 10 more days, and my FYP got to rush already. I think I don't have enough energy to carry on. I rush rush rush but I don't have stamina leh, how?

Anyway I am going to chiong all the way for two more months, then I will graduate myself early than the expected date. YEAH!

Alright, your father, me, going to rest now. =)

151008

2008-10-15T19:48:00.003+08:00

Didn't really sleep for the whole night, I slept like around 6 or 7am in the morning. Nearly can't wake up for my FYP meeting at 9am. Took a cab down and had the meeting. Really got to catch up for my FYP already, we only left 6 weeks.

Today, there is this webcast marathon for SIT student to clear their CE points. I went for the 11am talk and left at 12 for the basketball shoot out. Then went back for the 2pm and 3pm talk. Need to clear my CE points now. Damn tiring man.

Reach home and lie on my bed straight and I just wake up.

Initially wanted to celebrate Sebas birthday, but Wayne having training today, so change to this weekend lor. If I know, I should have eat together with Julian after the CE talk. Untill now I haven't eat yet. =.=

I feel that I am very useless leh, don't dare to do this, don't dare to do that. Why leh? Because I scare lor. =.="

I think I need to be more brave from now on, HA!

Happy 22 birthday Sebas!

131008

2008-10-13T18:52:00.002+08:00

Despite being sick for 5 days, I still went to school, because of the law ut in the afternoon. Ah, forget it. The test is damn difficult and I have mental block during the test, after the test then I remember the answer. WOLS!

Today Gina bought bread and fruit tart for me, hahaha, thanks ar! She said it's for my birthday, so nice of her. And that's the two only thing I ate today untill now.

Still feel very sick now, when am I going to recover? Sigh.

Happy 21st birthday to Patricia Seow Yee Lin! =D

101008

2008-10-10T17:56:00.003+08:00

I feel that my whole day was wasted today. Wake up at 530am, but I keep on snoozing my alarm untill 630am. Wash up, packed my bag and took a cab to Police Headquarter at Novena. Reached there at 745am and waited for half an hour before entering the building. Went thru a briefing and filling up some forms. The whole thing of filling up the forms required two hours of my time.

Then a police officer came and informed us that the selection today will last for the whole day, which means untill 5pm or 6pm. I was prepared to give up on my UT already, but after they sort out our forms. They called me out and say they are unable to choose me as a police officer because there is still a long time to my graduation day. So they asked me to re-apply around 3 months before graduation.

Waste my $22 to take a cab there.

Take a cab from there to school, thought I can catch up abit. But when I reached school, I suddenly feel very tired. So I skipped third meeting, write a RJ and request the facilitator to give me F for the day.

Third meeting I was in the classroom sleeping, from 130pm to 3pm. Then play a game of dota and prepare myself for the UT. After that Alvin drove me home, thanks bro.

I just feel that my whole day was spoiled. Actually there was training today, but Wayne said that only one person is going, so I went home.

Tomorrow got to wake up early, it's my grandmother's 100th day. Going to Bright Hill to visit her.

By the way, today is the 10th of October. Double ten, in chinese we call it 双十. Guys should be grateful to this date because this is the date that Sun Yat Sen make a success in revolutionary and we don't have to leave a long hair and make a pig tail now.

Guess I go and take a break now, super tired, and I got a serious sore throat. AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

091008

2008-10-09T22:40:00.002+08:00

Alright, one year older now. Yesterday I celebrate my birthday by watching dvd with myself. I watch Money Not Enough 2 and Journey to the Center of the Earth with my father. After that went to my grandmother house for dinner. Then played mahjong with them, watch television, drink green tea, that's all.

Today went to school, check my mail. I was shortlisted for application for Police Officer. Hahaha! Damn happy, waited for so long already. Tomorrow I got to go to Police Headquarter for selection, wish me all the best, hahaha.

I think I am not going to tell them that both my ankle ligament tear, if not I think my chance of getting in will be slimmer, or I go in do sai kang.

815am tomorrow, go go Desmond!

081008

2008-10-08T01:03:00.002+08:00

Damn tired. Just reach home from training, just finish bathing and finishing my stuff. Tomorrow have to wake up early and reach school by 9am for my FYP.

I guess, I got the best gift today, hahaha. Same team as her, so happy man, hahaha. I guess must be some guy up there knows that this is my wish, hahaha.

Happy birthday to you~
Happy birthday to you~
Happy birthday happy birthday~
Happy birthday to you~

Hahahaha.

061008

2008-10-06T21:49:00.002+08:00

Just recieved an SMS which says that I am shortlisted for selection on this friday. It's regarding application for Police Officer. But the name sent to me wasn't my name, so I don't know whether I am shortlisted or not. Have to wait for them to reply my email. Sian.

Damn tired.

051008

2008-10-05T12:17:00.001+08:00

Knn, early in the morning got headache, wtf.

041008

2008-10-04T23:18:00.002+08:00

Damn bored. I don't like weekend and holidays, because I will be staying at home everyday. Nobody ask me out, nowhere to go, nothing to do.

I think I am not going to talk to you unless there really is something really to talk about. I feel that you are so high up there that I cannot reach. No matter how high I jump, even I take an aeroplane and fly high up, you will always be higher than where I am.

Sibei sian~

031008

2008-10-03T23:42:00.010+08:00

So tired. Yesterday got training and today got training and I just reached home from school. Finally our ban have been lifted, we can get back to court for our training and ball game.

Yesterday I attended a talk and they give each of us a paper. The paper is showing some advertisment, so I took a picture of it ask ask everyone a question.

How many guys are looking at the man doing with that girl?

And the answer is four, three in the picture and one more looking at the picture, hahaha. Just some nonsense to make the day go faster.

And I recently found a picture of myself.

I think this was taken when I was primary two or three, so long ago. Cute or not? Hahaha. That time I was already 14something tall.

I got a cut while opening my classroom door today. Then my finger keep bleeding and bleeding non stop, the blood just flow down to my hand. In the end, I invent something myself. I left some of the blood to flow out, then I use tissue paper to hold very tightly on the wound. Then the blood clot somehow stick the skin back to my finger and for my whole training it didn't split out. Cool huh, new invention, hahaha.

Yea! And tomorrow is weekend, I will get back all the rest that I need.

011008

2008-10-01T17:25:00.002+08:00

Happy children's day! Where is my gift? Haha. There are alot of festival today, children's day, Hari Raya, Hong Kong's national day. But so many festival, I am stuck at home. Damn bored man, lucky sebas ask me for dinner later.

Finish painting my room, from white change to orange and I design some stripes in between. Not bad la, considering my first attempt. But there are some changes made also, because my mother itchy hand go and paint the part that I want it to stay as white, so I don't have any mood to paint it myself and I let them to do the whole thing.

Actually I thought of asking her out, but I don't know how leh. She is like so high up there, I cannot reach.

So sian leh, waiting for time's up then go for dinner, I don't want to stay at home.

Boring~

280908

2008-09-28T01:22:00.003+08:00

Yesterday night, there was this cute girl knocking on my door selling ice-cream. Too bad none of my family member wanted to eat ice-cream, so I decided to buy one myself, lol. So I asked her, how much is one ice-cream? She said it's a box and one box is $10. Haha, so sorry I don't have enough money so I rejected her.

I guess things are better now? I hope so. I really hope that we can still become friends, but I know that it's not easy. What to do? I'm the one at fault, blame myself.

Today whole day staying at home. My grandfather and aunty is staying over, so we played mahjong. Whahaha, I won $25.

I told my mother that I want to quit smoking and I will quit after this packet. But she say, you remember what you tell me when you are younger? So I started to realise what I had said before, I told her that I hate smokers and I won't smoke when I grow up.

Of course, everyone won't start something without reason. I remember when I first lighted a cigarette is because I thought everything is the end for me. My left ankle ligament teared, I lost my position in my team, doctor say I cannot play basketball anymore. So I resort to smoke, so stupid. Even when I'm smoking now, I don't even know why the hell I light that cigarette and I hate the smell of it. So I decided to quit now, save up the money and reward myself with something that I like.

Tomorrow will be another boring day, but I have to wake up early in the morning. Zzzz~

260908

2008-09-26T19:28:00.002+08:00

Seriously, I know that it was my fault that I started a bad impression, but it was not my intention. I know that you are afraid of me, but I want to say, I am afraid of you more than you are afraid of me.

Because I don't know what to do, I am scare that everything that I do will affect your impression on me. That's why I don't dare to talk to you, don't dare to face you.

I think I damn useless man, so hum ji. But anyway, monday I am not going to school. Because I don't know how to face you.

I am a hum ji kia.

030908

2008-09-03T19:22:00.002+08:00

Today is my last day of holiday, school will be starting tomorrow. Went to have Pizza Huts for lunch with my sisters, then back home and slack. My last semester in this school, but I still have alot of stuff to complete. I had finished my PP reports, now waiting for presentation. 31 CE points, I aim to clear it in 1 month, attend talks everyday. FYP2, let's see how it goes. I just want to pass and graduate, that's all.

Today is the 3rd of september 2008, it have been 4 years already, time really flies. And after that, I had never step into a relationship again.

Lol, don't know why I am writing all these. I am going to enjoy my last few hours of my holiday.

280808

2008-08-28T01:44:00.002+08:00

Recently, my computer have gotten some virus, which made me can't use the internet. But I can still use MSN. I got the virus because I got bored and I downloaded some game, Monopoly. =.=

But today don't know why I can use and I can even surf all the websites. I think it's because the anti-virus program had helped me erased all the virus. We shall see tomorrow, so I faster come and blog.

FYP, GPA and class allocation have been out. I got C for my FYP, and I pass all my modules. Allocated to W64B and W64D, that's what alvin told me. Haven't check who is in my class, from what I know is Alvin, Pei Yu and Vincent is in my class for all four days, and Patricia in one of the modules. Shiok man, finally my last semester in this school, they let me to be in the same class as my friend, hahaha.

Right now, I have to chiong for my Professional Profiling already. Going to be due soon, 2000 words, oh man. Finish this and I left FYP2 and CE 31 points. Get all of this done and I will graduate.

I am also waiting for the reply over at the police side, I decided to sign on for police. With a diploma, I would at least get a rank of Sergent. Then I will save up the money earn and see what I can do with it. If there's nothing I can do, I think I will continue with police.

Hopefully everything will goes fine.

190808

2008-08-19T23:36:00.002+08:00

Actually I did this before already, but for the sake of my Belinda, I will do it again, hahahaha.

1. The person who tagged you is:
Belinda
2. Your relationship with him/her is:
Boyfriend girlfriend, haha.
3. Your five impressions of him/her:
Lol. Pretty, sexy, hot, irresistable, uncontrollable.
4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you:
Give me goodnight kiss, hahahaha.
5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you:
Good night kiss lor, use MSN say one mah.
6.If she becomes your lover, you will:
Already is what, lol. I will treasure her.
7. If she becomes your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be:
No need to improve la, very good already, hahaha.
8. If she becomes your enemy, you will:
Do nothing.
9. If she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
Don't know, I don't have enemy.
10. The most desired thing you want to do for him:
Make her happy.
11. Your overall impression of him/her is:
Great!
12. How do you think people around you feel about you:
Ask them, tag me and let me know.
13. The characters you love of yourself are:
Happy go lucky.
14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are:
I don't hate myself.
15. The most ideal person you want to be is:
Desmond Kristy Yap Chin Leong
16. For people that care, and like you, say something to them:
Something.
17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you:
1. Ah Choo
2. Harry Potter
3. Jessica Alba
4. Ah Long
5. Ah Gao
6. Zhuo Wen Xuan
7. Ru Hua
8. Ah Hong
9. Ah Niao
10. Ah Li Baba

18.Who is no.6 [Zhuo Wen Xuan] having relationship with?
ME!!!
19. Is no.9 [Ah Niao] a male or female?
Niao is cat. Cat is pussy. Pussy is female.
20. If no.7 [Ru Hua] and 9 [Ah Niao] are together, will it be a good thing?
If she don't mind.
21. What is no.2 [Harry Potter] studying about?
Magic.
23. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3 [Jessica Alba]?
Oh, long time ago. I miss chatting with her.
24. What kind of music band does no.8 [Ah Hong] like?
Amithabha.
25. Does no.1 [Ah Choo] have any siblings?
26. Will you woo no.3 [Jessica Alba]?
Hell YES!!!
27. How about no.7 [Ru Hua]?
No thanks!
28. Is no.4 [Ah Long] single?
Yes.
29. What is the surname of no.5 [Ah Gao]?
Ah.
30. What 's the hobby of no.10 [Ah Li Baba]?
Catch forty theives.
31. Does no.5 [Ah Gao] and 9 [Ah Niao] get along well?
You say leh, they are dog and cat.
32. Where is no.2 [Harry Potter] studying at?
Hogwarts.
33. Talk something casually about no.1 [Ah Choo].
He sneeze all the time.
34. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8 [Ah Hong]?
Sad to say, we live in different world. Men and ghost cannot be together.
35. Where does no.9 [Ah Niao] live at?
Rubbish bin.
36. What colour does no.4 [Ah Long] like?
Red, he like to see blood.
37. Are no.5 [Ah Gao] and 1 [Ah Choo] best friends?
Dogs are men best friend.
38. Does no.1 [Ah Choo] have any pets?
He is a pet shop owner.
39. Is no.7 [Ru Hua] the sexiest person in the world?
Oh, please.
40. What is no. 10 [Ah Li Baba] doing now?
Finding the forty theives.

Haha, done. Just some lame shit.

080908

2008-08-09T12:08:00.002+08:00

Woo~ Happy National Day. And it's the start of the Bei Jing Olympics Games today. Can't wait to see Team USA in action.

Yesterday my grandfather came over to my house to stay. He wanted to watch the Official Opening of the Olympics, so I accompany him to watch, all the way to 12am. Then he went to sleep and I continue to watch the TV. He is sleeping in my room, so I gave him my whole bed. I continue to watch TV untill 1am plus. Then went back my room to play my game untill 3am plus, because my mother told me my grandfather will wake up at 4am.

Early in the morning 11am plus I woke up, so noisy outside, I like haven't sleep enough. But nevermind la, lucky now holiday already, if not I cannot sleep so late.

*snore*

080808

2008-08-08T10:23:00.002+08:00

2008 August 8, this date is nice, so many 8. And today I miss the 8th lesson for my marketing module, also 8, so nice. =.=

I just can't wake up la, didn't heard my alarm. I think I am going to retake this module again, sian, break record.

All of the modules, only marketing cannot skip. But I have already skip today, so monday and tuesday I think not going le bah. Then there will be chalet on 13 to 15 with my class, another chalet on 18 to 20 with basketball team.

Sibei sian. I think I still can enjoy this few weeks before my destiny is out. So let me have some freedom.

020808

2008-08-02T19:38:00.002+08:00

Whole day staying at home, so damn boring. Buy 4D, never tio. SIBEI SIAN AR!!!

Decided to watch some video, went to crunchyroll and watch Rolling Love episode 1. Because my girlfriend is starring in the show, whahahaha. This show not bad, but everytime they start to cook, I will feel very hungry, too tempting already, haha.

Seriously, I think I only want Genie to be my girlfriend, so sweet and cute, lol. I am so much in love with her, oh my god.

Alright, I got to stay at home for another 6 or 7 hours before bed.

SIAN!

290708

2008-07-29T15:51:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was the last day of the POL-ITE, due to the results of how we fared, there will be a reform in the team. Change coach, change players, change this change that. But only some is allowed to attend the meeting, like so secretive.

Tomorrow, there will be 2 matches in a row for Paya Lebar Kovan Cup. Because the previous match against Ye Chen was postpone to tomorrow, we will be continuing the rest of the 1 quarter and 2min because it rained the other day. After that there will be a match against Kai Xuan. Not tired man, hopefully the whole team will come then it won't be so tiring.

Recently I been thinking about street basketball and competitive basketball. Whenever I am playing on the street, I feel so relaxed, so enjoying, no stress, nobody to scold you, nobody to shout at you. But when it comes to competitive basketball, just one small mistake, you can get a shit out of you.

Anyway it will be my last year in RP, or maybe one more year, hahahaha. I will switch to street basketball and have fun with my friends. One more year because I think I will retain la, this year really very jialat. I still have Professional Profiling, another Final Year Project and a total of 31 CE points to collect. Walan eh, sian man.

Aiya, I go eat the spaghetti my sister cooked.

100708

2008-07-10T09:34:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, my mother woke me up at 8:35am. I thought I was dreaming, but it was not. My mother came into my room, hold my hand and cry. She said: " 阿麻死了，阿麻死了!"

Very long didn't saw my mum crying. I woke up and sit on my bed and think why so sudden. After that I went to school for my FYP, after FYP I went down to Bukit Purmei for the funeral.

Went there and fold the incense paper, many people came. Heard alot of stories about my grandmother. My mother said early in the morning, my grandfather keep scolding my grandmother, said that she didn't tell him anything, didn't leave any message, and he keep repeating the same thing. I saw him crying, but I know he is trying to control. My mother asked me to look after my grandfather, don't let him go out alone.

Actually, my grandmother had alot of illness, but she went while sleeping peacefully. Although many people can't bear it, but I think it's the best way for her to leave, without any pain.

Funeral is untill Monday, FYP submission is on Monday. FYP presentation is on Wednesday. I don't know I have time or not.

Lastly, POL-ITE name list will be out today. Good luck Desmond.

050708

2008-07-05T01:02:00.002+08:00

Suddenly I feel that I have become back to the "full of attitude" Desmond.

When I was in full of trouble, when I was so useless, I tend to be quiet. But when I was back into action, when I was full of confidence, I became back.

Full of demand, keep scolding people, always think that things will go my way. I think I better change my way and I am going to think about how.

Anyway, today is my good friend's birthday!

Happy Birthday Belinda!!!

=D

020708

2008-07-02T13:16:00.002+08:00

Yesterday training was so tiring, and I slept untill so shiok. In the end? 10.30am my team mates informed me there is FYP meeting with the advisor at 12pm. SMLJ? Lim bei stay jurong leh, not next to the school leh.

The first time I was late, the advisor already scold me liao. So this time I am not going, since they never informed me in the first place and I expect them to tell the advisor that they forgot to inform me.

Just now, my advisor call me, he asked me why I didn't come for the meeting. I said they didn't inform me. Whar, they still can say got send email leh. Knn la, lim bei not in school for 3 days, check simi email. Lan pa la. Advisor still ask me to put in more effort, if not I will failed.

Seriously hor, failed I nevermind one. But because of this kind of things? Aiya, nevermind la. People do the whole thing, do untill sui sui, they want to do what can do what mah. I started out the whole thing, also like no use like that.

Next semester, I will DEFINETELY CHANGE TEAM MATES!!! What the fuck! Never inform me becomes my fault. Then ok lor, wish you all pass with flying colours and I failed with crawling dull colours. Jiayou ok!

Fucking hell.

010708

2008-07-01T23:04:00.002+08:00

Life is always fair. When you gain something, you will lose something. Vice versa, when you lost something, you will gain something.

I have lost many things during these 2 years, I guess it's time for me to gain something now. I don't wish for more, just one is enough. I am not a greedy person, heh.

Right now, I feel that it's coming closer and closer to me, I feel like it's coming back to me, woo~. But let's not be so happy now, things will change, I may get the wrong feeling. Let's just continue the way I am now, I believe it will be back soon.

Come back to PaPa~!

The veins in my neck have loosen alot, woohoo~! Felt so relieved.

Oh yea! I am dead beat after today's training.

x_x

050608

2008-06-05T00:28:00.003+08:00

Ever heard people saying "You are pain in the ass."? But how does it exactly feels to have pain in the ass? Well, I know it very well.

How do I know?

Try having diarrhoea and keep going to the toilet for 2 days! Fuck man, now I really have pain in the ass. I can even understand the feeling of those prisoners' feeling of after being caned. I need cushion to support and relive me while sitting down. What the fuck. =.=

What did I have for my meals?

I ate what was given to me during the basketball camp. @#$%^&! SMLJ! Got more suay one or not. This is the best camp that I ever went! I swear!

Haiz, I go and have more rest now.

*pain*

290508

2008-05-29T20:53:00.002+08:00

Saw Yuwen yesterday after two years. Had our first chat in two years. Although it was just a 30mins chat, I guess that 30mins have summarise how we have been doing for the past two years.

Always had this in my mind. What am I going to do if I happened to see her? I might just go one big round to avoid her, I just don't dare to face her. But yesterday, I just went up and stand beside her.

Ha. Things have change alot. Hope whatever she do will be smooth.

Nice seeing her again.

110508

2008-05-11T19:45:00.002+08:00

Happy Mother's Day to me!!!! Eh, to my mother.

Been a long time when I last update my blog, seriously things haven't been going smooth.

First, is that I am not selected for school team, again, this year. Same old reason, come on. Tell me something new.

Have been thinking lots of things, I also don't know why. Last night, I forced myself to sleep at 530am. Sitting infront of my laptop with a can of Tiger beer. In my dark room, listening to the thunder and watching the lightning. Just can't fall asleep.

Today, suddenly have the feeling of cleaning up. So I took the vaccum and cleared up my room. Now it's so neat and tidy. It has become a very nice place to be in, but this feeling only occurs once in 20 years, hahahaha.

I am going to wash the dish now. Oh my god, I am so clean today.

I love to keep things to myself. ;)

070408

2008-04-07T19:50:00.002+08:00

First day of school, first day being a year 3 student, first day without having you by my side.

Surrounded by friends all day long, but the feeling without having you beside me is really different.

But we have made a promise that every wednesday I would go over and have lunch or dinner with you. Yeah! I got to see you once every week, hahaha.

That will be enough for me man. =)

050408

2008-04-05T22:58:00.002+08:00

Finally got to see her again after 34723984310 days. Although it was just a short dinner, but I guess I will be contented with that.

Since June year one in Republic Polytechnic, the one that I saw and with her in my mind up till now, never fading.

I had already holding on for so long, and I will continue to hold on to it. No matter what will happen between us, I just want to make the best out of it.

290308

2008-03-29T01:56:00.001+08:00

人要你生气，你生气，就是你失败。
人要你生气，你不生气，就是你成功。

W66C.

030308

2008-03-03T19:27:00.006+08:00

Been back to the Team, had a friendly match but taking a few days off again. It's not that I can't take the training or what-so-ever.

Elbow like that how to play? How to train?

Ok, that was last wednesday. But untill now, I still can't really use my right hand, it can't even go straight.

So, was resting at home, feeling bored. Suddenly something strikes my mind and I became addicted to it after that.

My new game!!!

Download it in my computer and was playing for the whole week. I'm going to complete this game soon, whahaha.

This version is very different from the previous, the graphics, the way of playing and etc. Maybe because it's in GameBoy Advance and it's quite cute.

Alright, I'm going to have my dinner. And when I'm back, I'm going to kick that boss's ass and win the game. Whahaha!

150208

2008-02-15T00:09:00.002+08:00

Yea, I'm going to rant all about what I have been thinking all these while.

Firstly, I have decided to go back for basketball training. I was thinking of representing school for the last year in my polytechnic life and I don't want to have any regrets. Later when I wakes up in the morning, will be the first day I am going back. Although the idea of going back is great, but there are some concern I am having with.

Concern number one, my legs. As many people have known about my two ligament teared ankle, althought it doesn't give me as much problem like before, but it's still not that strong. When my ankles are in pain, I can bear the suffering, but here comes concern number two.

Previously it was because my legs are weak, I had to gave up my position to someone else. I am just afraid that the same thing might happen again this year. Another reason why I wanted to go back is because I had never played IVP before, this year is my last chance.

But among all the concern, what I really want is not to regret. So I am giving myself a chance to grab this opportunity.

Second thing I am going to write about is my work. I was thinking whether to take it as a free lance job after graduating. What I am considering is taking a full time job that is relating to what I am studying and MLM as free lance.

It's not that this job is not good or what-so-ever, it's just that I think I am quite slow in this trade. Maybe it's because I haven't see any results yet. Although I can say at a age of 20, there aren't many Sales Executive out there. But in MLM, there are people who are fast and there are people who are slow. Those who are slow will envy whoever that are fast and may even get demoralise. People will tend to compare you with them and ask you when are you going to be like them. Anyway, I will just try my best for this one year and will start the plan I have mentioned earlier.

And why as a free lance? It's simply because I have to be responsible to my client that I have worked with before, and to be responsible with myself, my promise to the people I have came across with. I don't want to be some empty promises guy. So as a free lance I still can keep all these promises.

I guess I have written a very long and naggy post. Whatever is written here have not been discuss with anyone before. This is just some things that have been kept within for a very long time. =)

090208

2008-02-09T03:17:00.000+08:00

Third morning of the Lunar New Year. Every year have been the same, visit relatives and collecting ang bao, hahaha.

But this year was a little bit of different, that classic question have finally striked me. People were asking when I am getting married. Haha, funny sia, no girlfriend how to get married?

No girlfriend for so long already, I also don't know whether I will get married or not, hahaha. Damn random la, I also don't know why I type these.

Many stuff have crossed my mind, and I don't know how to express it. During this festive season, I also don't want to think so much, so just leave it.

Maybe when things don't get in your way, you tend to think alot of nonsense as an excuse.

I tired already la, go sleep le. Good night!

As I am writing all these, my mum is peeping beside me.

=)

010208

2008-02-01T12:33:00.000+08:00

Yeah!!! 1st day of the month and I got a new watch. Cyma day and date 25 jewels, the watch have crystal in it, whahaha. Now I no need to keep wearing my Rolex all the time, woohoo!

Yeah!!! Today is also the last day of school, but I never go. =.= Can't wake up la, too tired already. Now just wait for year 3, whahaha!

Yeah!!! Siao ar, where got so much things to yeah!?

Actually have la, tomorrow is someone's big day! But since it's tomorrow then tomorrow then say lor, haha.

I think later should be having K-Box, or tomorrow, don't know what's the plan. Later go office then see how.

Yeah!!! I go eat my Ba Zhang liao.

Yeah!!!

=.="

270108

2008-01-27T14:13:00.000+08:00

Have been staying home for the past few days, keep coughing and coughing untill my chest is very pain.

Actually I also don't know what to update, nothing interesting had happened recently. Except for you.

Someone I can't say, someone I can't let anyone know, someone who have to stay as a secret for now.

I don't know how will it goes, but I will just do my part.

As for my work, I just hope I can reach Marketing Executive before the start of my Final Year Project. Sales Executive is not enough la, seriously.

I think that this post is very random, even the way I paragraph it can shows how random I am now. Aiya, I don't know what I am thinking or writing, maybe my mind is in a mess now.

Not going to write anymore, my laptop keeps giving me electric shock, I am going to cook maggie for my lunch.

030108

2008-01-03T23:54:00.000+08:00

Er hem! I am back! First of all, happy 2008 to everyone!

On the New Year's Eve, went countdown at esplanade in a special way, wait for people to arrival. When everyone arrive, we decided that there are many people. So we change the idea of not watching the firework and went to pub straight away. While walking to Suntec City's taxi stand, the firework started. Haha, so watched till the end and took a cab to Red Box and went to a pub call Skin.

Yesterday, went to Sentosa with Team RP, we were all very 'tanned' on that day, the sun was very 'bright'. After that we went to Pit Stop at Clarke Quay, similar to Minds Cafe. Play some game and took picture. My scanner installation disk spoil la, sian.

And today, it's my parents 20th year anniversary. That means I am going to be 20 year old soon. Went to grandparent's house for dinner, then they play mahjong. =.=

School will be reopening on next monday, study for 4 weeks then holiday again. Then I guess, I won't be seeing her anymore.

All right, that's all for the updates, when I have time then update again.

2007-12-13T13:21:00.000+08:00

So long, didn't update my blog, just can't find the time to update.

I was promoted last week and ever since then, I feel like I have stuck in that position. I need help in my business, anyone out there want to help me?

I felt that I have become very stress up about the things that I have done. School work was still ok for me, don't have any problem. But the big problem is my work, I just want to give myself the very best. It's not going to be easy, but I will persist on. Recently, everynight after I got home from work, head starts to ache, can't fall asleep, panadol is starting to become like sweets to me.

Today, I find the time to escape from all this. Just want to stay at home the whole day, or go outside to relax myself.

I want to get promoted again by end of this month. Executive!

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2007-11-23T01:37:00.000+08:00

Didn't went to school for this whole week, had been working very hard for my own success. All I have to do now is to really depend on myself.

That day, I told mummy to support me by helping me to buy my product. But this is what she said to me. Our family is not like last time anymore, my daddy is not working, my mother have a shop on her own, but that shop isn't earning very well. Every month my mother will withdraw $1000 from the insurance account and now we left $2000 in there. My mother say that our house can only survive for another 2 months, if her shop business is still not that good, we have to sell away our house and live with my grandparents.

So I am earning money for myself now, I told my mother that anything that is under my name like my handphone bill and internet bill, I will pay them myself.

But success doesn't really come that easy, it takes alot of hard work and determination. Anyway I hope that Angeline Aunty will buy a King or a CalStar or even both la. Then I really no need to take allowance from mummy for the next 30 days.

But she still give me $20 everyday. =.=

Hope there will be good news tomorrow.

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2007-11-15T10:40:00.000+08:00

Didn't attend school today, because I overslept.

I don't know why I will say those stuff to you, guess it's because of my mood. But it's also what I been thinking about, only when you need help then you will come and look for me. I don't know all the while what am I to you?

Maybe you don't know how I feel, nevermind, it's ok. Anyway I have already prepared myself. That time when you ask me what am I counting down to, I am counting down the time that you are going to graduate from this school. I told you that I am not able to see you anymore, nobody going to have lunch with me anymore. But actually what I was thinking was I can entirely forget about you, don't have think about you anymore. You can fully focus on your boyfriend, can forget about me too. Take it as we never know each other, forget about everything.

Haiz. But all I can say is that I really love you alot.

But what's the point?

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2007-11-13T14:30:00.000+08:00

Finally got back my laptop, but I haven't got a new adapter untill yesterday and I am finally online.

Yea, I am now working part-time and studying at the same time. Because of the condition of my leg, I choose something which was unaccepted to many Singaporean. YES! What's wrong with MLM? I find that MLM is just another way of how we can earn money, of course not using the wrong method.

Venture Era Group Ptd Ltd was the MLM company that I have joined, maybe some people have heard of it or maybe even never heard of it. Basically we are selling products to prevent illness rather than to cure it.

But I guess the reputation of MLM in Singapore have been ruined by some other MLM company who are using prymid, and because of this reason, MLM is being condemmed by many people.

Whatever it is, I don't give a damn about all this. I just want to be successful in life, and what does successful means?

"Success is the ability to remember failure after failure"

All of you out there can label me as a failure, but I will defintely come back as a successful person.

Just you wait and see.

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2007-11-01T13:33:00.000+08:00

Spider web everywhere in my blog. Not I don't want to update la, I just got back my laptop yesterday. Everything in my laptop is gone, but I did some backup the previous time, so still ok.

Today didn't went school, very tired. Reached home at 3am, everyday after school, go office untill 12 plus or 1 plus, then went for supper, then go home. *yawn*

I still havent show any results yet, but that doesn't mean I am not going to show it.

Ya, this will going to be a very very very very short post. Not in the mood. I also don't know why not in the mood. Maybe because of this, maybe because of that.

Or maybe, it's just because of you.

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2007-10-19T10:51:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to SP to support the girls for the 5th and 6th placing in IVP. While they was warming up, I saw Aunty Lin, a sports trainer from Sports Council. I told her about my condition and she gave me some advice.

She said even if I save money to see doctor, they will asked me to do the same exercise, so she teach me how to do it.

The condition of my leg now is very very very weak, even walking will cause my leg to dislocate. The swelling in my ankle will forever be there, and if I don't do the exercise, which my leg will become even weaker. I will have to go for operation.

Haiz, I just hope my leg will recover.

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2007-10-17T17:50:00.000+08:00

Yea. Woke up in the morning, and I had lost a dog. Pui Pui is gone and never return to this family.

It's not that Pui Pui is dead or what, it's just that my parents can't stand him anymore so they sent it away, gave it to their friends. If Pui Pui is really dead, I guess I can really sing that S.H.E. song.

Actually I love big dogs, but it seems that big dogs have to leave this family sooner or later. Rottweiler, Doberman, St Bernard are all the big dogs that had left, and now Pui Pui.

QQ is now left alone again, a small dog with a space of her own in the kitchen. Although I had lost a dog, but I got a new parrot.

It's a ' Nanday Conure' breed. A beautiful green parrot with a black cap on it's head. Quite an active parrot, maybe we got to teach him how to talk, hahaha.

Staying at home the whole day. My ankle is really very pain now and I can hardly walk. I guess I have to eat lesser this few months, I got to save up the money for my leg. Finally decided to see a doctor. Really hope my leg can recover, but I know it's not cheap to have this leg recover. Got to save up. Sigh~

My house really looks like a zoo.

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2007-10-16T20:34:00.000+08:00

Yesterday after school, we went to Takashimaya's Seoul Garden to celebrate Sebas 21th birthday. It was a good chilling session and fulling of course, haha.

This few days, my left ankle suddenly became painful and I don't know why. When I walk, my ankle can suddenly feel loosen and I can feel that the bone is somehow dislocated.

It was only just now I realised my left ankle is swollen. I know both my ankles have been swollen for one year, but it's even bigger now. Maybe I should just go down and visit the doctor, sigh.

I have already stop playing basketball for sometimes, but my ankle just won't recover or even feel better. It's really very painful. =(

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2007-10-14T13:57:00.000+08:00

Reached home at 3 plus am to 4am last night. Yesterday it was Patricia's birthday!

Early in the morning, went to Ang Mo Kio for Klunch, after eating and singing, we went to orchard. While the girls go shop around for Pat's present, the guys bring Pat and En Ning to the E-Max room. We book the 5 PC rooms for 1 hour and rented a DVD which totally cost $31 for 7 person. Hahahaha, shiok!

Finally when the girls came to surprise Pat, which she don't know they will be coming. Hahaha, then we went to Plaza Singapura for dinner. PIZZA HUTS!

After Pizza Huts, the finale for the day have come. We went to Six am pub at Boat Quay. At the pub, you can play pool, sing song like you are in K-box, except that everyone in the pub will listen to your performance. Haha. It's not a very big place, so we played game among ourselves and sing song. No need to paiseh one la, good or no good just sing lor, hahahaha.

Yesterday drank quite alot also, but nevermind la, big occasion. Thought after drinking go home can sleep untill shiok. Nabei, early morning woke up by Pui Pui's bark.

I guess I will be staying at home whole day for today bah. Tomorrow, it will be Sebastian's 21 birthday, whahahaha.

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2007-10-08T22:57:00.001+08:00

Today is RP first game against SMU, we couldn't imagine what could have happened. I was sitting there, watching and laughing like hell. Haha, not I rude la, but SMU really sucks, LOL! We won SMU 94 to 42, hahaha.

After watching their match, I rush home. Whole family was waiting for me, my parents, my siblings, my grandparents, my cousins. Acutally I don't feel that there's a need, but they insists. So let them be lor, =.=

I have never celebrated my birthday and I don't like to celebrate, that's why. Just sing birthday song and eat cake, which is normally done for every birthday celebration. Then I went to sleep.

I always think that it's just a date, don't have to think that it's your birthday so you are special. But whatever la. Another half an hour or so, the end of my birthday.

And I am NINETEEN years old now!!! Hehehe.

Happy birthday to myself!

061007

2007-10-06T15:03:00.000+08:00

The hot topic now is Monday's IVP, everyone was so excited about it, me too of course. I have been waiting for one year before playing this big event. Last year, because of my left ankle ligament tear, I gave up IVP. Didn't had the chance to play with Sebas together in his last year in RP.

Yesterday after training, Coach called me and Wei Liang out. I already knew what is going to happened and I prepared myself. Coach say both of our stamina is the lousiest in the team, my stamina is lousy because of my leg. Even if I am in the team, I still won't be able to play much, because of my leg. I couldn't show my greatest potential because of my leg.

BECAUSE OF MY LEG, MY LEG.

For this one year, I trained very hard, trying to get back to what I used to be. The harder I train, the weaker my leg.

Although I still have one more year in RP, but I have already told myself that this IVP will be the last for me. So, next year I won't be going back to basketball team. It's time to rest, after 14 years of basketball.

This year IVP is the best birthday gift I ever recieved.

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2007-09-30T13:25:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a damn great day, our gang consists of Sebas, Wayne, Alouis, En Ning and Pat came to join us later. Hong Yuan and Zhan Hong was working there, but they get to join in the fun also, haha.

We went to Garden Asia, it was the Craftbeer OktoberFest. They brew their own beer and they had something like a carnival, allowing people to sample their beer. If you want more, you got to buy coupons in order to exchange for a beer.

Of course we just pay the entrance fee la, because Hong Yuan and Zhan Hong steal alot of coupons for us already, Whahaha. Then we taste the different types of beer, some are nice, some makes you want to vomit.

The atmosphere there was great too, with retro music like Sway, YMCA and the most classic one. I love you baby and if its quite alright, I need you baby to warm the lonely night.

Then we went to occupy the dance floor, do alot of stupid stunts, hahaha. Played dice, played poker cards, played alot of stupid things. The one who lost have to drink one big cup of beer chosen by the winner.

It was quite enjoying, drinking, playing, chatting with girls over there, dancing. And at the end of the whole event, everyone cannot take it anymore. Luckily Hong Yuan, Zhan Hong and Roy asked the staff there to send us home together with the other staff.

When I reached home, i went to sleep immediately. But with a headache, it's very hard to sleep. I lie on my bed for 3 hours before falling asleep.

It was really a great night, damn shiok. Haha.

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2007-09-26T11:51:00.000+08:00

Yesterday even though I am sick, I went down for training after I heard something. Training was fun, people nowadays like to play rough and violent. But the actions are only thru their mouth.

What did I heard? I heard someone, oh no. Sorry, two person is trying to aim one person. Then I went down for training also, because I like to see show. Anyway, that two guy I already see them not happy for very long. Try and do something "special" and I make sure you no need to play basketball forever.

IVP is starting soon, about another 2 weeks. But our team simply cannot make it, just by looking at it. However I believe we are going to give the other school a tough fight. Provided there are no fuckers who are trying to create mess in the team.

Hey big guy. Let me tell you something, if you only know how to say and don't know how to do. Like all the shadow kicking you said, LOL. I will show you how to do it, maybe alittle bit more with my own move huh.

Hahahaha, seeing all the idiots doing stupid stunt makes me laugh like crazy. Anyway that two guys take care. Hahahaha.

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2007-09-25T12:00:00.000+08:00

Didn't went to school again. Prepared everything, wear my shoe...

And I rush to toilet, stomache plus vomit. Feeling very terrible now, just woke up after a short rest then went toilet again. Don't know what I have eaten yesterday, Ban Mian, Taiwan Delight and Medium Popcorn and a Medium Coke during movie.

Yesterday went to watch "I now pronounce you as Chuk and Larry", a M18 show, damn hilarious. It's about gays, hahaha, from faking as a gay to meeting all the real gays.

Yea, hilarious untill I got sick. =.=

I go get some rest again, oh no no! Rushing to the toilet again!

=(

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2007-09-20T22:01:00.000+08:00

Missed my first lesson for Semester 2, =.= Was not feeling well, when I reached Woodlands, then I took a cab home.

Stayed at home for the whole day, so damn bored. But not feeling well, I couldn't do anything either.

Got my first 2 grades for my first 2 lesson in Semester 2.
System Analysis and Design: C(WTF, so fast get C liao)
Operating System Concepts: B

Right now, I am still as moody as ever. Haha, guessed I am too emo already. My temper have become worse and worse, anyone who provoke me or I see something I not happy with. Whahaha, you all can get ready to buy coffin for yourselves.

Images keep running my mind after seeing those things, the scene keep rewinding in my head. But I have already made my decision, =) All the best!

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2007-09-16T02:04:00.000+08:00

Just reached home after pool game(again). Lucky that girl never work today, if not I damn paiseh. It's not as if I really want her number, I am not at least interested in her.

Went to CCAB(old NIE campus) to play basketball with ex-national team player, after that it's our coach treat to steamboat. Then they wanted to go play pool and Alouis doesn't want to go MOS anymore. So I didn't go MOS too.

As usual, after every pool game, we will buy alcohol, sit down chill and relax.

I was quite emo actually. We didn't contact each other for like one week or so, saw her online last night, said hi. I guess she was very busy, and my friend asked me for DotA. I quickly finish a game, wanted to see if she had reply.

But, she went offline without leaving any message. I was playing another game of DotA with tears rolling down my cheeks. Haiz.

I miss you alot, my angel.

School is reopening on Monday, hope to see you real soon.

=(

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2007-09-15T01:35:00.001+08:00

Just reached home from my pool session. Today is my worst day can.

We played number billard ball. Everyone will get 7 cards and you have to pot the numbers shown from your pile of cards.

And what!? I lost. 3 people left with 1 card and that lucky Sebas got to pot that number 4 each all 4 of us left.

Then they come with a punishment for the loser. Because all 3 left with 1 card, so draw a card from the pile, with Ace as smallest and King as the biggest number. The one with the smallest number have to get telephone number from the counter girl.

Wayne got Queen, lucky him. Alouis got 4. I GOT 2!!!! WTF! 1st time approach a girl and get number from her, walan eh, my heart felt like I am going to get heart attack. But no choice, punishment is punishment.

Me: Errr, close table 2.
She: Ok, $13.40. Then she went to count the number of cards.
Me: And got $2 deposit for the card right?
She: Ya.
Me: And can I have your number?
She: Huh?
Me: Can I have your number?
She: Why leh?
Me: Make friends lor
She: *Laugh and think awhile then smile at me* Erm, don't want la, very weird.
Me: Haha, ok, bye~ Then faster run.

Walao eh, my 1st time approaching a girl for number and I got rejected.

Next time I don't dare to get number from girls liao.

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2007-09-11T00:20:00.000+08:00

Been playing game all these while, DotA, Maple, basketball, pool and other nonsense stuff. Although I spend all my time on these, I still feel very bored.

New class is out, I have been posted to W64M, 24 new faces again. From the start I was in RP, there wasn't a class where I know someone.

Feeling damn emo for quite long already. Haiz. The dream that I had is coming true. We are becoming further and further apart, I don't even know what to say to her when I see her. Know why I was so scared when I had this dream? Because since young, all my dreams came true and I know this is going to be the same.

Haiz. What should I do now?

Maybe...

080907

2007-09-08T00:37:00.000+08:00

Didn't attend the talk on Anger Management today, because I woke up at 3pm. I slept at 3am plus last night, but because I had a bad dream, can't sleep properly untill daybreaks.

The dream... made me woke up in sweat, it was something I don't want it to come true. I dreamt that me and her have become further and further apart. But even if that came true, I don't know what to do.

From the start, I didn't know what to do all along, just keeping quiet make me "survive" alittle more.

However, as long as you are happy, I will be happy for you too. =)
Don't have to care about me, just stay happy forever, that's what I will always wish for you.

I miss you alot~

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2007-09-06T20:28:00.000+08:00

Woah~ Damn tired. Haha, went to play soccer with my Dad and his colleague. There was this new indoor street soccer field just beside my secondary school, you got to book the soccer field to play in it and it cost $60 per hour. It's a great place to sweat out with your friends, gather everyone out and kick off!

In the end, I injured my leg, hahaha, accidentally trip over. And because of my ankles, I am not suitable to play soccer la, hahaha, but I enjoy sweating out.

I think I am going to get my hair cut tomorrow, damn long now, but I don't know want to cut what pattern leh. One thing is I want to cut short, get ready for IVP, heh heh heh.

Okok, I am going to bath now, very smelly now, hahahahahaha.

040907

2007-09-04T16:27:00.000+08:00

So bored, so came to blog about my dog, hahaha.

Pui Pui, the small cute cute dog that came to my house after he was born. He is called Pui Pui because he is very fat.

This is when he is only a few weeks old.

But look at him now.

Not cute anymore liao, haha.

Just now went to eat Sakura with my team mates, after that went Cuppage to play pool. Hahaha, now back home relaxing.

There's this number that when you call, a ghost will talk to you. She said she can't talk to you at the moment because she lost her head, when she found her head she will call you back later. Hahahaha, damn funny sia.

I going to IRC to act as girl and when guys wants my number, I give that number, LOL!

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2007-08-31T21:16:00.001+08:00

Didn't went to watch training, due to the fact that I woke up at 3 plus pm. Woke up by her sms, replied and nothing happened for the next 2 hours.

Please, next time if you need anything, just tell me straight away. =.=

Went to the Cosmax Fair yesterday. Ok, I admit I was searching for the X-box booth, because that's where she work. Actually I don't know whether she was at the X-box booth or not, but I just open my eyes big big and search for her.

Found her and have a short chat. Haiz, time is always not enough when we are together. But I just want to make full use of the time given.

I guess I won't be able to train for quite awhile. For very long, everytime after training or ball game, I feel that my right ankle is separated from my leg. Last week, my right ankle somehow went into the wrong position. Making me unable to walk, can't even rotate my ankle.

I don't know how to explain it but it feels like something is "stuck" down there. Untill now, walking is such a difficult task.

Haiz, I have been very down for so long and I still can't make this feeling go away. Why why why?

Every night, I kept thinking about you, but there's nothing I can do.

I seriously miss you alot. AHHH! WTF!

Aiya, just let this feeling takes it's full control over me, I don't have the strength to overcome it.

Anyway, my plan has worked, waited till everyone is full. I can now finish the rest of the pizzas and drumlet myself.

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2007-08-27T23:14:00.000+08:00

HA! I guess this is the path of my life. Seriously I think I have been very kind, but this time, I am going to make a change.

I am going back to the old Desmond. The guy who since young doesn't have any feelings, where people called him cold-blooded, with aggressive temper.

The previous post, I never want to hear a sorry from you. It's not your fault, it's a huge mistake made by both of us, or rather, me. I guess I should be the one saying sorry.

Maybe you guys will see me blog very seldom.

Life is getting bored, damn bored.

250807

2007-08-25T00:05:00.000+08:00

Whoa~ Damn tiring man, just reach home from school training.

Last night, went to catch Dead Silence, hahaha, nice show, not scary at all. But the plot was not bad, how they link up to the whole story. I always have a phobia for puppets, hahaha, but I am still able to take it.

Yesterday I guess accompanied you to wait for bus was the last time I am going to see you untill school reopen. You are always such a busy girl, with your Final Year Project, with work and everything. Maybe you don't even have the time for me.

Yes, although you are not my girlfriend, but I just want to spend time with you. But it just seems impossible. Sometimes I guess you take me for granted, always think that I will be there for you, or when you need someone then you come and look for me. Although sometimes I don't like it, but I just keep quiet.

Maybe, that's because I really love you alot. For this 1 year plus, I still don't know what is our relationship. Anyway, I am going to carry on, even if it is forever. Nothing can describe why I can hold on for so long. Even I, myself don't have the answer.

Blah blah blah, I go DotA liao.

=(