Life's Like That

Yesterday, we lost. Lose 33 points, I guess I am not that good. I made alot of mistakes, haiz, and I actually got foul out. Wth.

I only remembered I got 4 foul, haiz.

Too tire, now in school blogging. I think I have injured my knee last night. My whole body is aching all over now.

Haiz. She still didn't contact me.

030904

Now in school, nothing to do. It is break time now, We order pizza. Hehe.

Keep thinking about the tournament later on vs whye nam red at ang mio kio cc at 8.45pm.

While, go to go to eat my pizza. =)

Update later.

Yesterday's training was cancelled and I thought it was still on. So zhiyao came to my place to play winning eleven 10, then we went to play pool and I was carrying such a big bag don't know for what.

We went to arena country club to play pool, after awhile wanqing came to join us. Later at night, we went to kah hao's birthday party, got bbq.

Then we went cycling aroung, me and zhiyao each fetch 1 girl. I fetch wanqing, but not so li hai, keep wobbling.

After kah hao's birthday party, we went to jurong east entertainment, don't know go there for what, just slack there and hang around abit with thos gang over there.

Then, we cycle again. From entertainment to toh guan, just to see a new build playground with a swing. Then we cycle back again.

Reach home at about 2.30am. Online awhile, then went to sleep.

Haiz.. there's something I have found out but I am not sure. I think she got a new bf, she wrtitten it in her blog, but not in detail. But who could she have gone out with at night, and it was not her friends. Haiz...

No matter what, I will still wait for her.

Came to blog again, I have never blog for so long. This few days are quite ok for me, I am getting better and better.

But break for 2 months le, I still miss her alot. The feeling is still as strong as before.

She still didn't contact me, no matter what I have sent her, no matter what I have did. Its still the same. Haiz..

No matter what, I still hope that she will come back to me. I miss you alot.

030904

Haiz.. Yesterday alot of things happen, I think Im crazy. Her friends suddenly all scold me in her blog. Haiz.. I think Im going back to my past, where nobody like me, everyone hates me, attitude sucks, even more violent, even more hot tempered. Like that no one will take advantage of me.

Haiz.. it doesn't pay to be a nice temper guy, no one will appreciate. That's it, Im going to be a bad guy. If i provoke anyone of you, don't say I never give warning. I won't give a damn.

Haiz..

I now damn fucking wants to kill alot of people. All this people better be careful. Nabei chao chee bye.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now in school, first break out. Haiz.. I miss her alot, but does she miss me.. Haiz..

Very sian, today learn programming using Visual Studio. I never listen to class so I don't know what is going on.

Later Im not going to RP basketball training, because today Nanyang CSC got friendly match versus our under 16.

I think there is something wrong with me, I keep feel like vomit every now and then, very long le. Haiz.. don't what's wrong.

Haiz.. I really love her alot.. Haiz..

Go slack le.. Maybe update later.. Haiz..

Now in class nothing to do, break time. I already finish my ppt le, so I can rest till 2pm.

Haiz.. she didn't reply me today, saw her blog, she left $10 only. Yesterday msg her ask for her account number, but she didn't reply. I suggested that I transfer $10 to her everyday. Like that she no need to take money from parents, then won't get scolded. Haiz.. I just want to help her only.

Haiz, nothing to do so come to blog. But nothing to blog about too. Think I will update later.

Still love you.

Haiz.. saw her today. She was in the bus and sit directly in front of me, I was at the busstop. I didn’t board that bus, I know she don’t wants to see me. Haiz.. I really miss her a lot.

Today got UT test, I no mood to do, so I anyhow do and play solitaire, then submit my paper. Today science lesson, I learn how to use excel. Haiz.. But still very sad.

I really wish she can come back to me. Haiz..

I really feel like ending everything, and everything means everything. Haiz..

That day she go to her friend birthday party, she played true or dare, and got kiss by a guy she don’t know. Kanina chao chee bye, don’t let me find out who is that guy. I confirm kill him. People who know me sure know I will definitely do it. And that xiao ming, don’t know who is he, probably some orang utan just came out from the zoo. If I know who is he, I confirm beat him till he become rambutan. GET AWAY FROM YUWEN!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why everything have to turn out like that. Haiz..

I really love you a lot.. Haiz..

Haiz.. she still didn't contact me..

Geogina Soh yuwen, a girl when I first saw her when I was 5 years old. She was already very beautiful then. I saw her on the TV, she was the champion for the PSC Nite, singing competition. 2 years later, I met her again, this time I was 7 years old. We studied in the same primary school, but we didn't talk to each other before.

Every weekend, I can see her on the TV. She was the host for some children show, in school if there is an performance, she will sure be performing. I didn't see her after we both went to Secondary school.

There was something on the net that attract everyone, the Friendster. I saw her profile, so I add her, then she added me on the MSN. This is where we started to contact each other again.

When we were chatting on the net, I have a very good impression of her. That time, I don't have any girlfriend, but she had a very good boyfriend then. Still, we exchange contact number. Every night, she will send me a good nite message. I was not very into this kind of message, but just to reply her, I keep asking my friend to send me some good night message, then I can send it to her.

Everytime when I send to her, or she send to me, after that we will start to sms each other, starting with, you hvn slp ar?

2 months after all this, she told me that she have broke off with her boyfriend, I know she is very sad, so I went to console her. That time, we are getting ready for our N level.

On teacher's day 2004, I know that she was studying at gek poh shopping centre's Macdonald. I immediately ask my sister whether they wanted to eat anything from gek poh's food court. And I went to meet her. This is my first time meeting her, her first impression to me was again, so perfect. After she had finish studying, I suggest to send her home. She agreed. Reaching her house downstairs, I teased her for not giving me a goodbye kiss. To my surprise, she really gave me one. It was so sweet, the feeling is so nice.

I quickly went home, and chat on the phone with her. This is the first time I chat on fone with her, her voice is still so sweet. The next day, we went to study together. Then after that, I send her home again. This time, it was till her doorstep, she showed me her dog, bing bing, a mix maltese. Then it was the first time i saw her father, because we were chatting a the stair way outside her house, and her father came out to throw rubbish.

I asked her to be my girlfriend, but she don't want. However, on the next day, she agreed. I was damn so happy. And this is how 030904 started.

And so 1 and a half years have past, many things have happened, happy, unhappy. But no matter what, I still love her alot. Haiz..

I know I have disappoint you, making you angry all the time, I know Im not a good boyfriend. Haiz..but i really want to change for you, I promise that this time it won't be the same again.

Yuwen, if you see this, please come back to me, I miss you alot. Haiz..

Love you forever

Haiz.. keep reading her blog, who is that xiao ming? How did she know him? Haiz.. I really miss her alot.. wondering how is she now..

Now raining heavily, actually going to play mahjong, but cancelled le.. now stay at home waiting for the election results.

I now not so sick le, but still got coughing only.. Haiz.. if she was to take care of me, Im sure I will be ok immediately.. haiz..

I really love her alot.. But she doesn't.. Haiz..

When will you come back to me? I really need you..

Today morning wake up, rain very heavily. Then when i walk to the bus stop, I found out that I don't have money to take bus, no coins. So i take cab to wei cai house and we take cab to school.

That taxi driver is damn fucking.... I don't know how to say. Attitude sucks. And do I look like I'm working in woodlands industrial park, he drive us to there. What the hell.

Now in school, today's topic is " What is learning ", do you know what is learning?

Haiz, today still very sick. Yesterday nite I didn't go for training, school and nanyang both i didn't go. Then Daddy bring us go kou fu eat, we eat yong dou fu, after eating, i vomit. Like as well don't eat.

This morning wake up feel like vomit again, brush teeth I vomit out. Oh my god.

I think I better start my FMT le, today I leader. Sian..

I miss you alot

Now very sian, that faci talking, nobody listening..now finally finish le.. i keep looking at her blog, checking whether she got update anot. Haiz.. saw her lastest entry say that she join sports as cca, trail only got scratches. Im so worry for her, haiz, but im a nobody to her..haiz..

I now go do my reflection journal, quiz and evalution le.. then can go home le.. maybe eat in school..cheaper..maybe update again ltr..

Now in school, 1st break out. today is math. From yday till today, I keep wanting to vomit, I thought wake up everything will be ok le, who noes, it become worse.

Now my chest very pain, got breathing difficulties, haiz.. she is not there for me le. Haiz.. where are you? Please come back to me..haiz..

Whole body very weak, no strength to do anything..haiz..

Haiz.. I still love you alot..

Haiz, if today nv break, it will be 1 year 8 month le, going to 2 years. haiz..i spoil everything myself..

Now in sch nth to do, so come here to blog. I keep thinking about what she have told me in her blog, I really dun wish to admit it. haiz..but she is really leaving me. Break for about 2 months le, haiz..

Today in sch do my powerpoint, i until now still hvn eat. haiz..v hungry. Duno can eat wad. haiz..

Morning wake up got a terrible sore throat, very pain. haiz.. last time got her to take care of me.. now.. i eat my own shit.. haiz..

I still hope tt she will come back to me. I really love her alot. Haiz..030904.

Lessons going to end le, about to go home le.. haiz..end here..

long time never blog le, i thought that everything will be fine. haiz, but its not. I spoil all the fairy tales i used to have. i know its all my fault, i should not have show my temper, y cant i be more patient,haiz. now she have left me, forever.haiz, i really dun wish to accept the truth, i really love her alot, i just 1 2 be with her, i can change. no matter its N time or wad, after N will be O and it will stop, y cant she give me another chance.haiz, but i dun blame her, i can only blame myself. haiz..my forever and ever lasting with her can only stop at 1 and a half yrs. haiz, i really wish she can come back to me, haiz. 030904, haiz.

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