Life's Like That

Last day of the month. Today's topic for math is so so so so tough, about probability with some A-math thing. Catch no ball the whole day, so play DotA whole day lor. Haha.

And the stupid facilitator keep asking me not to bet and say I will lose money, he damn suay lor.

Today is not a good day like yesterday. Yesterday was so fun, hope that more will come.

Her birthday is coming soon

Today is a GREAT day!!!

First, I started by going to school on time. I was 1 minute early and there is a test, by the time I setup my laptop, I was late for the test. So I didn't do the test.

Then I played DotA in school, untill 1.30pm, and I ran off. LOL.

Went to Plaza Singapura to watch Just My Luck. It was a humourous show, very funny. The person beside me is more funny. High tide still don't want to go toilet. LOL. Went to eat KFC after that.

Played scissors, paper, stone and I lost. I let you win this time!

Great day!!!

不该再用我的爱困住你.

Finished the whole of 绿光森林. So touching, I thought Sofie is going to die, but luckily she didn't.

It was a great show, with hatred, love, touching scene, handsome and beauty.

Was watching it with my tears.

Hahaha. Tommorrow going to catch a movie a PS!!!! Hehehehehe..

Tonight can sleep sweetly. LOL.

当你笑着找到你的相信, 我会将这三个字化作你的姓名, 永远地放在心里.

WOOHOO!!!
I cleared all my debts. Previous entry I said about I still lost $16.70. Yesterday I won $17.60, so I win 90cents!!!! -.-

Yesterday I actually 1 2 buy a total of 3 goal for Brazil's match, BUT!!! I forgot to buy.. Haiz.. total score is 3-0.

Today I thought there is World Cup, but they rest 1 day and I went to Singapore's Pool to buy Germany win and a total of 3 goals.

Nevermind la, the odds will be higher.

Tomorrow I am going to watch movie!!! But still not confirm yet.

After she replied me in her blog, I feel that I have let a huge boulder off my shoulder. But I still miss her, I guess the huge boulder is maybe because that she is willing to forgive me. Hope so bah.

"A Scattered Dreams That's Like A Far Off Memory, A Far Off Memory That's Like A Scattered Dreams. I Wanna Line That Pieces Up, Your's And Mine. "

WOOHOO!!!
Yesterday is a winning day for me. I just anyhow buy total goal of 1 ball for Italy versus Australlia for $5. If I win, I can collect $21. WOOHOO!!! And I won!!! Second match I take Ukraine eat Switzerland(half ball). I won again!!! So total I win $30 yesterday.

But bookie there I still lose $16.70. Still need to buck up. Hope today win can clear all my debt.

Today I bought $45 to school, take cab to school, take cab home. Now I left $6. -.-

Lucky I haven't went to Singapore Pools to collect my money, if not I don't know how much I am going to spend again.

Although yesterday Italy scored 1 goal and let me win $21, but my favourite team lose. I am a supporter of Australlia, I think they have a good chance and this is their first time into the World Cup. They were playing so well till the end, the game should have stopped at 93 minute. But they given away a penalty at 92.43 minute, and it was so obvious that the Italy idiot fall down himself. It's not fair for Australlia, at least they should end the game during extra time, to make them feel that the game is all worth well. But....

Today is Communication Skill, we have a mini debate in class. Here goes my problem that I have to solve:

I am a parent of two children, one is a polytechnic year 1 student, another is a 10 year old boy. I am very busy with my schoolwork and so, I asked my daughter to take care of my son. However, she is now complaining to me that she don't have freedom. So, I have to argue with her and finally come up with a solution to solve the problem.

My friend is acting as the daughter and she started, " I don't have any freedom, I can't go out with my friends and I have to take care of my brother, I can't do what I want!!!"

Here's my reply which the whole class was laughing at me

"I am sorry, your brother was an accident"

LOL, isn't it funny. I admit today I was not alert in class, so I came up with rubbish. But it is one of the best thing that I love to challenge, it's not going to happen again, I promise.

Today I guess I have written alot of rubbish. Guess I will stopped whoever who are reading this. I have taken alot of your time.

1 last thing

I STILL MISS HER ALOT!!!

YEA!!! Daddy ordered pizza, I rush home to get ready to finish all of it. Hehe.

And I finally got an A in school, an A for enterprise skills.

She replied me in her tagboard, but I wonder whether she know it's me or not..

Miss her so much, haiz.

Seems like I am the lime light for yesterday's barbeque.

I was like holding a press conference, many people asked me questions and I have to answer all of them.

Here's the top number 1 question that many people asked me yesterday.

"Where's your girlfriend?"

Ans:" I don't have girlfirend."

Question: "That time that one leh?"

And so on and so fore.

I am sick and tire of answering this type of question to everyone. It makes me think back of everything again. Although I am still thinking of it everyday, but it's more of a personal kind of thing to me when I am thinking alone. Rather than people asking and I have to answer them.

Like what yesterday's people have said, she is a nice girl. I knew it too, but the problem is, if 1 is good, another must be bad. If not, they won't break up. I know I am not a good guy, I treat her badly, I make her scare of me, I make her run away from me, I make her stop contacting me. Haiz.

Now she have a good boyfriend, I should stop thinking so much. However, I will still wait for her.

Geogina Soh Yuwen is still the best.

Haiz.. So bored. Later going to Karen aunty's house for barbeque. Then tomorrow have school.

I suddenly feel that I don't have any friends. When I am bored, I wanted to find people out, but no one was there for me. So, I stopped asking people out. When they want to go out, they ask me, I sure say ok.

Now I know why I everytime stay at home nothing to do. Losing her is like losing everything. She was there everytime for me. But she is now with another guy. Haiz.

为什么爱上你的认识我，为什么对你舍不得是我。

Haiz.

http://takey.myweb.hinet.net/miss1.htm

我也希望我是那只小蜻蜓.

Tears rolled down my cheek as I was watching France versus Togo, and Korea Republic versus Switzerland. Was it because of I am tire? Or was it because of what I have read in her previous posts. I don't know.

After 20 minutes of watching, I went to sleep. However, another session of running tap water flow out of my eyes. I couldn't sleep last night, so I cried myself to sleep.

I don't have any mood to do anything right now. Once I closed my eyes, I will think of her. She is there in every part of my memory. Even primary school memories.

I really don't know what to do right now. She have moved on, and me? I don't know. So what if I can get another girlfriend like everyone say. I can do it, but I can't promise that I really love her. Because my heart will always be with Yuwen.

I let a great girl passed by me and continue to walk further and further away from me, no matter how loud I shout at her, she just won't turn back and look at me. Not even one glance.

Don't have the feeling to continue writing.

You all can continue yourself.

030904 will always be with me.

School just ended, so I came here to blog.

I think today is the only day I am so hardworking for math. I don't know why, don't ask me.

Yesterday while I was going home, forgot to tell you all that I say a girl wearing t-shirt and bra wearing outside. I was looking at her and laughing at her. But she don't know, haha.

Yesterday win $10.50. The 50cents so funny, because the first match I bet $5 and I won. Second match I lost and the rate is, if lose, only lose $4.50. So, with some basic mathematical calculation, you should know that I win 50cents. Lol. Brazil match I am confident, so I bet $10, and I won. Haha.

Morning Daddy told me tonight go ah ma's house eat because she ask ah ma to prepare dinner and buy birthday cake. Today is my mother's birthday, we are giving her a surprise. So later I am going to ah ma's house myself.

She so long never update her blog leh, don't know how's she doing. Miss her alot. Haiz.

Go slack le.

Today nothing special happened, go to school, played DotA. After that I walked back home from Jurong Point.

Oh ya, something happened today. Guess what. I walked home. -.-

When I walked home, saw a beautiful girl wearing addidas jacket and mini-skirt. *whistle*

After that girl, I think it's a Japanese guy come over and asked me where is the MRT station.

Reached home, put down my bag, then went out to eat with my parents.

Conclusion, nothing really special.

I still miss her alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot.

Haiz.

Haiz. This few days very unlucky. Yesterday I lost $26.20. From last time win $30 till now lose.

I am going to stop betting, wait till I finish my this debt first. I don't want to continue losing and my debts get even more.

Today stay at school to play DotA till 7 plus then go home.

I love to go to school, that is when I won't feel lonely. Whenever I reached home, I will feel a strong sense of loneliness, made me think of alot of things. Haiz.

No one will understand how I feel.

Haiz.

Don't know whether should I get a present for her birthday. Haiz. Even if I do, will she accept it.

Feel like venging out and let everything out. This life is too stressful for me. But I am still willing to take up the challenge.

But...

Haiz.

Yesterday to tire, that's why didn't blog.

Now in school, wating for my turn to present, so I come here and blog.

Yesterday, first day of school. What did I do? I in school watch 绿光森林 and play DotA. So slack.

AND!!!! I lose money yesterday. Stupid Switzerland score 2-0. 1 is enough, they go and score 2. What the hell.

Now still win $5 nia. Sian.

Today got alot of matches, there's 4 today. Sian.

Now going to present my slides, after that play DotA again. Lol.

Saw her friendster new updated pictures. I miss her alot. Haiz.

But what can I do. Keep quiet bah, don't go and disturb people.

K la, got to go.

SO DAME SIAN!!!

Yesterday won $10, after the other 2 matches was a disaster. Ghana won 2-0?? Make me lost $10. So its like I didn't win at all. After that, Italy draw with USA?? What the hell, make me lost $5. So, the conclusion is I LOST $5 YESTERDAY!!!

Today, I am not betting, difficult. All strong team versus each other. Watch for leisure can, bet? No no no.

Saw her blog. Haiz. She is leading a happy life now, I shouldn't go and disturb her.
我会学着放弃你，是应为我太爱你．

Sian. Last day of my holiday, tomorrow start school le.

And Stephanie, stop singing beside me, its irritating!!!

Haha.

Miss her alot.

Wish her happy forever.

Alot of things happened today.

Went to play pool and billard at Ang Mo Kio. After that went to Bishan Salvation Army. Reached there at 7pm and went into the Auditorium. Melissa is performing, so went there to support.

The play "Chase" is very interesting and meaningful.

After that, there is a tea session. Haha, I eat alot of bread, muffin and drink alot of water. Free mah, so many they also cannot finish, so I help them lor. Lol.

Tire after a day, take MRT to Jurong East and take a cab home. I need $2 more, so I asked Jojo to come down and give me the $2. Who knows, the uncle say $4 can liao, den I give the $4 still blur blur sitting inside. Then uncle say no need to wait for her to come down liao. So good ar. Haha.

YES!!!! I win $10 again. Portugal won 2-0 to Iran. Shiok!

Now I have $30 and Nanyang CSC owe me $30. So I have $60, hope to save alot of money faster.

I still miss you.

030904

YES!!!!

Another $10. Watch till I sweat all over. Ivory Coast is so strong, keep attacking. But phew, 2-1. Lucky

Next match maybe taking Mexico, but must see how much they have to let.

Too excited, finally can take a rest.

Yea!!!

I won $10, Argentina won 6-0. Shiok!!!

Waiting for another match to start, I want to win alot of money then save up.

Next match should be a difficult game, Netherland versus Ivory Coast.

Update again later if I win. =)

Yesterday don't know what happened. Lost $10, so unlucky, sad.

Went to accompany Wan Qing to finish her work, then after that I took MRT and bus home. Reach home at about 6am, then went to sleep.

Although very tired, but this is the only way that keep me occupy, better than staying at home, online whole day. Damn bored.

Tonight hope can win some money, I want to buy present for her, her birthday is coming.

I think alot yesterday, I now see that when she is with me, she doesn't seems happy as she look like she was. I don't qualify to be her boyfriend and therefore I don't have the "face" to ask her to come back to me. Haiz..

But I miss her alot, and I really love her.

Haiz.
030904

Yesterday won $10 again, so total I have $20. Shiok.

I am sick, keep coughing and coughing and coughing. If last time, she will make honey or feed me drink "Pi Pa Gao".

The honey she made very nice, very sweet. The "Pi Pa Gao" she want me to enjoy to cool sensation of the "Pi Pa Gao" glide down my throat, without drinking water after that.

Now, no more sweet honey to make the honey sweet for me. Haiz. Miss her alot.

Coughing to death.

When are you going to come back??? Haiz..

030904

Just came home after eating my dinner with my parents and sister.

Yesterday only win 1 match, win $5 but lose $10, in the end, I lost $5.

Later Spain versus Ukraine, I don't care who score. I buy total of 2 goals with $5, if I win, it will be $16. Pray hard.

I still miss her alot, I am still waiting for you, haiz..

030904

YES!!!!

I win money for all three match yesterday. Scare me, I watch untill sleep, first half japan win 1-0. Kay long lor. Japan versus Australlia I buy Government de. Lucky Australlia scored 3 goals in the last 5 minutes, if not I lose money liao.

Japan : Australlia

1 : 3

Last 2 matches I kup with wanqing buy bookie de, but I play both $5 only. But I still won.

USA : Czech Republic

0 : 3

Italy : Ghana

2 : 0

I win $10, haven't plus the government. Shiok.

I know what happened to her already. 2 person bullying her!? Never die before. I will never ever let her suffer anymore.

030904

Yesterday results for 2006 World Cup Group C and Group D.

Serbia and Montenegro : Netherland

0 : 1

Mexico : Iran

3 : 1

Angola : Portugal

0 : 1

Daddy asked me to reach home earlier yesterday, so I reached home earlier than the previous time I went out. I reach home at 6.45am.

Actually can reach home earlier, I waited for cab frm 5.50am to 6.30am. Damn fed up.

I went to accompany wanqing and waited for her to finish her work. After that we went to eat macdonald breakfast.

Yesterday is the day that after so long, I choose motorbike as transport. It has been awhile since I did that.

Reach home with a headach, just woke up, still having headach.

I miss you alot.

030904

Yesterday someone reach home stare at me, and I didn't do anything. Idiot. Ask me do this do that.. Nin na ma.

My war have not end with you.

Seems like she have some problems recently, but I can't do anything to help her. I just hope that she will be fine and happy forever.

Here's the 2006 World Cup results for last match of Group B and the first match of Group C.

Trinidad and Tobago : Sweden

0 : 0

Argentina : Ivory Coast

2 : 1

030904

Yesterday results for 2005 World Cup.

Germany : Costa Rica

4 : 2

Poland : Ecuador

2 : 0

Today's match results.

England : Paraguay

1 : 0

2 more matches still yet to come. 6 more minutes and the match between Sweden versus Trinidad and Tobago will kick off. Well, I have to enjoy my soccer now.

I think I am really wasting my holiday. Morning woke up by the vaccuum sound outside my room, together with the 'cutting grass' sound. Woke me up while I was dreaming of her.

I dreamt of her every night. She can only now live in my dream. How I wish I can now hold her tight. I miss her alot.

Haiz.. I now can only wish her happy forever. That guy, I don't know who you are. If you ever dare to bully her. You will die.

Now she have moved on, and happy. I shall isolate myself and keep my sadness to myself.

No one will ever understand how I feel.

Never.

That it, I have tolerate enough. This girl have been like going on a war with me for 3 days. Talk to her, she give me attitude.

She asked for it. I am going on a war with her too. Let's see who win.

Yawn~ Just woke up, this morning 7plus then reach home.

Yesterday went to pei wanqing to finish her work, because it was so scary at night and she was alone. Played pool while waiting for her, because she work at pool fusion.

Belvena and her friends came to pei wanqing too. Khoo fang, miao ling, xiang ying and shu yi came but left early.

So we waited till 3am and she is free. We don't know where to go after that, so we went to macdonald's to have our breakfast and discuss. Finally, the conculsion is DotA.

We walked from city hall to Penisula Plaza and it was raining heavily, luckily the rain stopped after awhile.

After playing, then we take cab home.

Even though it was tiring, but I enjoy it, because they keep me company. Better then I stay at home, keep reading her blog, getting more and more depressed.

I sent her a testimonial in friendster and she finally accepted it. Because it was a mickey mouse.

Haiz.. she accept it not because of me but it's that mickey mouse.

Haiz...

A Sunflower is better than roses on valentine's day.

A night in sentosa is better than a 1 and a half year relationship.

Haiz.. really feel like ending everything. Maybe 1 day, you wouldn't be able to read my blog again. I don't know who are you, but you the one who is reading this now.

Haiz.

030904

Haiz.. early in the morning I am damn sad. I dreamt of her, then I woke up and went to see her blog.

Haiz.. I don't have any mood now. Want to know why, just go and see her blog, it's in my link. Haiz..

Now, whenever I dreamt of her, I will wake up sweating all over, my heart wil feel very pain. Haiz..

I really miss you alot..

I really need you...

I really love you...

Haiz..

030904

Today is the last youth cup match for me, as I will be 19 next year, and i am overage.

I thought of giving my best shot tonight, who knows, they walk over. -.-

Waste my time to go all the way to ang mo kio cc.

Today not much happen la. Slack at home whole day. So sian.

I still miss you alot..

030904

Nice date today, 060606. Early in the morning, wake up go online. Then my mother wake up, say something like don't want to go with me to the cmpb like that. Then she got scolded by me and shouted by me.

Cmpb such a important thing she think want go then go, don't want go then don't go.

Then after scolding her, she give me money to take cab go myself, because I don't know where is it. Who knows I went online to check the street directory and check where is the place and how to go there. I save $30!!!

Today finally made the deferment for National Service. Online do so many times still cannot, need me to go all the way there.

Second day with my yellow hair, like central of attraction, all eyes on me. I think I have to get used to it. After this colour I want to dye orange, then red, den blue, I think no more colour I will dye rainbow, lol.

Know what? I still miss her alot. But she still didn't contact me, haiz.

I really love you alot, waiting for you to come back.

030904

Early in the morning, I was woke up by my mum. My holiday so far, I have been woke up by people, can't get enough sleep.

Wake up, bath, then went to mummy work place. Her friend was there helping everyone dye hair, cut hair, highlight hair, perm hair, anything that have to do with hair. So I was there to cut my hair too.

I cut layer and I thought of changing my hair colour, but i don't know what colour I want. So i asked my mother friend to just dye any colour she thought was nice.

After a long while, washed my hair, I go to the mirror.

Oh my god! My hair become yellow.

I don't know whether this colour suits me, but I think still not bad.

Hope later there's programm going on, I so bored.

Just wake up by some fone call from my friend, something happened. So I wake up, online and see what's wrong. Now I know what's the big fuck.

Someone saying about me and wanqing!? I don't want to say so much, you say I hum, then I do something which is not hum. You not happy, we all come out and talk. Say what you want, I also welcome you.

You think you write all that in your blog I don't know. You think you scold so much voulgar and you think I will scare.

Oh my god, I am peeing in my pants now. You so scary, of course he will go out with us la. What did you do to make him stay around with you?

Jealousy is because that person feel inferior of herself. Oh, so you also admit that you did alot of bad things to him and scare he will go to other girls? Then you not happy, then come and scold us? Why don't you change your surname to lai.

Happy to see this? Feel free to give your comment in my tag, I love it very much. Thank you!!!

Haiz, felt so depressed every now and then, keep looking at her blog.

If we didn't break, today will be our 1 year 9 month anniversary, we will be out celebrating, haiz.

Now I can only stay at home, slack, feeling down. Haiz, no one really can replace her place in my heart. I really love her alot, haiz, but she have moved on. What can I do?

Miss her alot, haiz.

030904.

Haiz.

Haiz, today is a bad day for me. Morning went to school, didn't do anything, last day of school, so slack. We manage to figure how to play DOTA with each other, so we played the whole day, after school also play.

I stay in school till 6pm, becuase I have a match coming on, versus Tong Whye. Although we lost, but we played quite well. This is where the bad thing happened.

Just when the match is going to end, I made someone toppled over me and he hit the floor with his head landing on the ground. He then can't move, vomitted, he nearly passed away. If he close his eyes, I am dead, I will become a murderer. The coach and my team mate quickly called for ambulance.

Nearly get into a fight with Guang Zhou, but after that he say " It's OK, nevermind " , to me. I felt so guilty, I don't mean it. Then he was send to the hospital for rescue.

Haiz, what if he die on the spot.

Another thing is what I have saw in Yuwen's blog, I think she got a new boyfriend and went to meet his friend already. Haiz, I miss her alot. What am I supposed to do? I don't want to move on. Haiz.

Friday. What a happening day.

Haiz.

I still love you. 030904

Yesterday went out to slack, morning 7am then reach home. Reach home, then faster went to bath then go to school. And I was late, f7.

Today, not enough sleep, went to school to sleep the whole day, and I don't know what to present. Just anyhow say.

Just came back from my basketball training, tomorrow versus Tong Whye, sure lose. I have been deproving alot alot. Haiz. Don't quite have the feeling for basketball anymore, the feeling is not strong anymore.

After training, walk past her house, I think she is not home yet, her room doesn't have any light lights up. Haiz, I miss her so much.

Too hungry liao, now go eat my hor fun.

030904

>
Desmond Kristy Yap Chin Leong

" 21
Air Force
"

link

Friends
Alison
Melissa
Sheena
Xue Shi
Zhiyi

Relatives
Joanna
Josephine
Stephanie

Westwood Secondary School
Khoo Fang
WanQing
Yi Ting
Ying Yi

Republic Polytechnic
'Arifah
Aqilah
Belinda
DanChen
Dennis
Evon
Faridah
Felicia
Gina
Jane
Kylie
Maryam
Mazuin
Melissa
Pauline
Shermin
Wei Long
Yew Wen
Yin Min
Yun Ting
Yvonne
Zhi Yong

Republic Polytechnic Ballers
Alouis
Ben
Darren
En Ning
Hong Yuan
Hui Qi
Kai Wei
Kok Boon
Mag
Patricia
Sebastian
Sheryl
Sherylyn
Ting Yang
Vincent
Wai Kin
Wayne
You Fu
Zhan Hong

memories.

December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 July 2005 August 2005 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 June 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 March 2010 April 2010 September 2010 January 2011 February 2011

music.

Music Playlist at MixPod.com